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Where were you?

Monday, August 22nd, 2011

 

 

Where were you on 9/11?  Every American knows the answer to that question.  And do you remember the incredible feeling of unity we had….even if it was for a short while?  Flags flew everywhere and love of country was strong.

Where were you on 7/22?  Can’t remember?  I can!  Because I was in Oslo, Norway when the terrorist attack occurred. I heard the explosion! !  That date is etched in the hearts and minds of the Norwegians, just as 9/11 is etched in ours.  They, too, were attacked by an enemy, albeit an enemy from within.

And I was amazed at the reaction of the Norwegians!  Obviously there was horror and grief and shock.  But there was not a reaction that demanded revenge. .. justice, but not revenge. I  speak, read and understand Norwegian, and as I grappled with this event and spoke to people and read the papers and listened to the news, the message was not retaliation or revenge.  The message was :  we will not allow this man to change our hearts.  We  will focus on love for those lost and injured, and on peace.

A German newspaper reported:  “Even in their deepest sorrow the Norwegians don’t get hysterical. They resist the hate. It is amazing to see how politicians and the whole country react. They are sad to the deepest thread of their souls. They cry in dignity. But nobody swears to take revenge. Instead they want even more humanity and democracy. That is one of the most remarkable strengths of that little country.”

What came to my mind as I experienced this attitude was the Sermon on the Mount and the beatitudes:  Blessed are those who mourn, blessed are the persecuted, blessed are the peacemakers.

And what about each of us and our enemies?  How do we deal with those who have wronged us as individuals?  It is so difficult to let go of grudges and anger and hatred.  But Jesus admonishes us to do just that!  “Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you (Matt5:44)  That is so much easier said than done.  I know I struggle with that, as you most likely do, too.

And I struggle with the enemy from within …..within me!  The enemy that allows me to be petty, self-centered, judgmental, gossipy, jealous, and yes, unforgiving of those who offend and hurt me!  Jesus has defeated that enemy, yet I still struggle daily with the evil one.

A couple of weeks ago, Vicar Daniel Fenco preached a sermon on The Guilty Walk Free.  And he pointed out that we are all guilty and we are all sinners.  We have all wronged others,   but  because of the incredible love and sacrifice of our Lord Jesus Christ, we  walk free!

Thanks be to God!  Let us walk forward in love, knowing that we are forgiven.

 

Hidden Need

Thursday, July 14th, 2011

            There is so much need in the world, and not just in impoverished places.  Some of the need is right here in front of us, but we don’t see it until we get in really close.

            I’m thinking of a few years ago when I drove up to Mendham every Tuesday to take my grandmother grocery shopping.  One day after shopping, Gram asked me to clip her fingernails.  They were long and torn.  It was getting harder for her to do it herself, because of her arthritis.

            Driving back home that afternoon, I got to thinking about her toenails.  Was she able to clip them?  The next Tuesday I inquired about them. 

            “I didn’t feel right asking you to clip those,” she explained.  “Besides, I’m afraid if you see how bad they are, you’ll tell your mother and she’ll make me go back to that awful podiatrist.”

            I insisted that Gram remove her shoes and socks and, sure enough, I was appalled!  How had she been able to walk like that?

            I’ve been clipping Gram’s toenails, whenever I get a chance, ever since – secretly, so that mom doesn’t find out.  (Shhh- don’t tell!)

            Once in awhile Gram and I would pick up groceries at the store for some of the other residents of her senior apartment complex.  That’s how I found out that her friend Marge couldn’t read her prescription bottles, because of her macular degeneration.  She asked me to write the names in large black letters on each bottle one day.

            “So I can keep them straight,” she said.  Such a small thing, and yet it helped her so very much.

            Gram’s friend Mary had a bad leg, and needed a little more help.  One day I brought her a bottle of milk from the store, and noticed that her apartment was cluttered with boxes – so many that she could barely move about.  Her kitchen had just been renovated, along with all of the other kitchens in the complex – every senior’s nightmare because of the moving of dishes that is required.  Well, Mary’s leg was so bad that she hadn’t been able to unpack most of the boxes of kitchen things, even three weeks after the remodel was finished.  Her son had helped her pack, but he lived kind of far from her and hadn’t gotten back yet to help her unpack.  So Mary just lived around the boxes.

            As I handed Mary her milk, I thought for a moment of offering to help her unpack.  But I had already spent more time than I really had to give, taking Gram shopping.  So instead, I said goodbye and left her there with the clutter.

            All the way home I thought about all of the things that were cluttering up my own life, keeping me from having the time to help someone with something as simple as unpacking boxes.

Secret Place

Thursday, June 2nd, 2011

            Have you ever hidden away in a secret place – a quiet, solitary place away from the world and all of its complications?

            As a teenager, when I struggled with problems or relationships, I used to ride my bike out to my secret place and spend hours there.  It was near the Great Swamp National Wildlife Refuge, where (except for the occasional turtle) only the leaves on the trees and the tall grass stirred, blown by the wind.  It was a place where I felt free, a place where I could clear my head and think my private thoughts, a place where I could search my heart and sort out my feelings.

            It was the place where I could find myself again.

            What I liked best about this place was that, though I was undeniably of the world, there in my secret place I could imagine (at least for a little while) that I was not in the world anymore.  There in my secret place I felt apart from everything in the world that had hurt and confused me.

            It wasn’t until a little later in life, when I came to know Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, that all of this turned around.

            No, Jesus hasn’t taken away everything in the world that hurts and confuses me.  In fact, He has called me to be at work here in this world, in all of its complications, loving those who hurt me, seeking His guidance in all of my problems.  He has called me to be at work spreading the Good News of Salvation which comes through Him and which is available to everyone in the world!

            The difference now is that I am no longer of this world.

            That’s because He has freed me from it, from the sin and death that are at the root of all worldly complications.  Now I truly am set apart from the world, set apart for Him – set apart in Him.   

            He calls me to repentance.  He calls me forgiven.   He calls me a child of God.  He calls me holy – set apart!

            He sees me that way.  I only need to look to Jesus to remember who I am, to find myself again.  Now, when life in this world gets complicated, I run to Jesus!  He is my ‘secret place’, the One that I want to tell all the world about – the One that I want so much to tell you about, so that you can be there with Him too.